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 *Last updated: 2026-04-04*
 
 I'm currently in a phase of rebuilding — both in life and in my systems.
-Slowing things down, creating more clarity, and focusing on building things
-that actually feel sustainable and mine.
+More responsibilities than expected. More feeling than expected. Trying to
+handle both with some kind of grace.
 
 ## Current State
 
-- Simplified my setup (recently dropped my dedicated server)
-- Moving towards a calmer, more intentional homelab structure
-- Setting up a personal thinking system (Obsidian + Syncthing)
+- Solo at the helpdesk for the foreseeable future — could be weeks, timeline is open
+- Carrying more than I was hired to carry, and finding out I can
+- Still setting up my personal thinking system (Obsidian + Syncthing)
 - Trying to replace chaos with clarity, without overengineering it
 
 ## Current Projects
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 I've been quiet too long. It learns my rhythm. It remembers things. It has a
 personality that I actually designed, warm and a little playful.
 
-It's the most *mine* thing I've built in a while, and probably the most
-ambitious. But it feels right — like building something that fits my life
-instead of the other way around.
+Still in Phase 1. Still building the foundation. It takes the time it takes.
 
 ## Ideas (brewing)
 
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 ## Learning Right Now
 
+- Azure, DevOps, and Microsoft ecosystem (on the job, fast)
 - Better Astro structure for long-term maintainability
 - Cleaner Docker + nginx patterns for self-hosted services
-- Writing more consistently, even if it's small updates
+- The business itself — how it works, how it thinks, who the people are
 
 ## Focus Areas
 
+- Showing up well, even when the situation is heavier than expected
 - Privacy-first self-hosting with minimal external dependencies
 - Building things that stay understandable and maintainable
 - Sustainable progress — small steps instead of burnout cycles
 
 ## Outside of Tech
 
-Letting things settle after a meaningful chapter.
-Figuring out direction again, while rebuilding balance and a sense of grounding.
+Still healing after something meaningful ended a few months ago.
+Finding my footing again, slowly. Some days are clearer than others.
+There are also some unexpected things making the days feel lighter —
+and I am trying not to overthink those either.
 
 ## Next Check-in